I literally just stepped out of my car at work and within 5 minutes I was "harassed" 3 times.  I'm not wearing anything new, I've worn this outfit before.  Maybe because I look a little more put together today I hit closer to my age range then that of a 14 year old?  I have to say though that being screamed at, "Doesn't she look beautiful, Damn girl that blue really brings out your face" from down the street, or gawked at as you walk past me, or what about this one, "Praise the sunshine"...??? WTF does that mean?  I don't like it.

I've never been one that's very comfortable with attention or compliments.  It's not that I'm not confident in myself.  We all are a little self conscious yes, but overall I have a pretty strong love of me for being the way I am.  I might not do well with attention because Ive always been behind in developing?  Maybe it's a stigma of being a girl?  Always wondering what's the motive behind the compliment?

Most of all it's because of how I'm complimented.  I've gotten better with accepting love from my friends because that is given in a nice way, a safe way.  Compliments that are jeers and cheers are not cool, especially when I tend to normally look 14 even though I'm 25, and they come from 40 plus year olds. 

I look closer to my age today but I'm not whored out or anything.  I'm dressed for work, I look well kept.  It's nice that you think I'm pretty there Mr. Sleazes, but that doesn't mean you get to degrade me in the process.  Sorry, but women do not like being put on the spot.

Current Mood:  Miserable