Well it's happened.  I stepped by into my geekdom and am about to join a D&D session again.  I know, by doing so I'm shaming my girlhood and most likely my being a grown-up.  Part of me is doing this because Scott has always gotten a kick out of me gaming with him, part of me thinks it might be fun again now that my schedule is el' random.  Also I do complain that I don't get to hang out with people enough so this will force me back to socialism.

I'm also a little nervous, what with being the only girl and always coming in as a newbie.  I've participated in sessions before but I am one of those "use it or lose it" brain types.  I always need to relearn the basics each time I come back in.  Plus it is hard being the only girl sometimes.  I'm not a typical D&D girl, I am more a girly girl.  My comfort zone has always fit better around guys, I have more males I'm friends with then not.  They just don't always feel comfortable around me.  I don't want to take away their "man nights" but I also don't want to be surrounded by complete manly manness either.  Eh. 

Skyler is DMing the campaign in the city of Ptolus.  It's a combination of urban life and fantasy realm mixed in.  I've been working on a character and Scott has been tutoring me again on the basics.  I hope I don't disappoint people and I hope I actually enjoy making this decision.  Another problem I have is keeping awake.  It's not slated to be a late session since it is on a Tuesday.  I think I'll still need caffeine regardless.  I tend to conk out at midnight which is right around when this would end.

I will try my best to put my nerves aside.  If I'm openly accepted and work hard to keep up I think it will be a win-win situation.  Here's to trying anyway!

Current Mood:  Anxious